I will remember you.

This has been a really hard and trying couple of weeks for me. I found out I was pregnant early april, then lost our baby on friday May 6th that I instantly fell in love with that april morning. I know it is very common to have a miscarriage and I know so many who have been there and gone through it, but what I didn't know it what it felt like to love someone with all your heart, and before you even get to hold that little miracle in your arms, they are gone. I loved this baby, and know that one day I will get to hold him/or her in my arms, but for now, God will take great care of this sweet child of mine, I am looking forward to the day that I get to meet my sweet baby.

This song used to be one of my favorites when I was a teenager, but listening to it now, it has so much meaning to me.

Sarah McLachlan " I Will Remember You"
http://youtu.be/uHooH4464dQ

I will always remember this baby...I will never know why this happened, only God knows the why, but I have faith that he will bring me through this a stronger woman.

Another song that has constantly been on my heart is His Love Never Fails by Jesus Culture, and it simply says "Nothing can separate, even if I ran away, your love never fails...You stay the same through the ages, your love never changes, there may be pain in the night, but JOY comes in the morning. And when the oceans rage, I don't have to be afraid, because I know that you love me. Your love never fails. The wind is strong, and the waters deep, but I am not alone in these open seas, your love never fails. The chasm is far too wide, I never thought I would reach the other side, your love never fails. YOU MAKE ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR MY GOOD"

Jesus Culture "Your Love Never Fails"
http://youtu.be/IoezWBPGRAc

God knows there have been many times that I have wanted to run away from him, I have been angry and cried out to him that this is so unfair, but he is still there to hold me, and his love never fails. I KNOW that he works all things for the good of those who love him, it is just so hard for me to see right now in the midst of all this pain. But one day when I finally meet Jesus, I will get to meet the sweet baby and get to spend eternity loving that baby with all my heart!